I went back to the doctor today for another ultrasound and the amniotic sac was empty. My doctor came in to talk with James & I and hugged me and said, "It doesn't look good." My doctor said he's expecting that this isn't a viable pregnancy, but isn't willing to give up on the pregnancy until he's 100% sure. He wants to give my body time to release the pregnancy on its own before doing anything. I had blood work done to check my hcg levels to see if they're decreasing. I have another ultrasound scheduled for next Wed. It's a weird position to be in knowing that I'm pregnant but there isn't a baby there anymore and I'm just waiting for my body to release the pregnancy. The crazy thing is that a few weeks ago, I was cleaning out our desk and came across the 1st ultrasound picture and started worrying about the amniotic sac being empty. I can't help but wonder if that was the Holy Spirit preparing me for what was to come.
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I know that miscarriages are God's way of taking care of an unhealthy pregnancy, but that doesn't make it any easier. I know that God is in control and knows the plan for my family. James & I are so thankful for the little miracle we have in Abigail! Abigail is such a gift from God. While James & I would like more children, we've also said that we would be content if Abigail was our only child. Every baby conceived is a little miracle from God. I started praying last week for God to take this pregnancy if it wasn't healthy, so I am at peace knowing this is all part of God's plan.
I'm going to give my body sometime to release the pregnancy, but will schedule a d&c when my doctor can say for sure that this isn't a viable pregnancy.